The Choice

Life is made up of choices.

Simple choices like red / blue or sweet / salt and choosing to hold back the truth.

A simple choice of when and I fuck up

• I have another offer, I want to not take it and carry on with the current plan
• I need to buy that ring sharpish
• I don't know how to tell it to the parent
• I don't know what to do without her
• I'm lost.

Now how the hell do I solve these?

Excitement and Terror

7/7/2012... I'm excited and terrified.
Random questions and statements in my mind from yesterday...

• Will everything be ok on time
• Whose calling/going?
• 1 Month to tie up loose ends and tell the world
• 1 Month to get 3 rings
• Finding out she loves me, no matter what she says
• Finding out I love her.
• Respecting my mother, have to call her
• Reminding myself this isn't crazy but is very real
• Stop being such a dick at work
• Registering and Notifying the state
• Answering the questions posed and feeling excited
• Wanting to give her everything but falling short
• This phone is still shit
• I want to tell my friends